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Month: April, 2013

The day my life turned around.

I used to be really depressed. The depression started when I was about 11 in 2004, became serious around  2007 and it received a massive kick in the butt one dark day in 2012 at the age of 19. I wouldn’t say I’m fully recovered as this shit takes time but I like to refer to that day as ‘the day my life turned around’. 

My mom recommended a book to me one day. It was called ‘The Secret’. I was 17 years old and she was at her wits end with me. Of course I laughed at the thought of a book making a difference in my life, scoffed at the few sentences I skimmed and merrily continued down my road of self-destruction. Just before I moved out, the day before I decided it would be a great idea to leave my family home and move countries in search of… something (I still to this day have no idea what I achieved by moving away) my mom presented me the book. She told me to slip it into my suitcase and reach for it whenever I was ready. 

A year later I took my mom’s advice.

I was horrifically drunk (chance of narcotic influence: very possible) and I had just experienced one of the most turbulent years of my life. I had found love, and subsequently lost it. I had moved away from everything I knew. I had discovered the hell of paying your own taxes on minimum wage within a fucked up corrupt system. I had been rejected from every single university I had applied for and I had resorted back to self harm. Something I thought I’d kicked a few years back. Then, I decided to listen to my mom for the first time in years. I reached for the book. She had written me a personal message on the inside, thanking me for giving this a go. As I flicked through the pages they suddenly made sense. Everything made so much sense. 

I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I’m not going to say everything that happened in my life after reading the book was amazing because it wasn’t. But a hell of a lot of things took a positive turn for me and I truly believe it was through my own attitude change. A change I wouldn’t have been able to make without that book.

I urge all of you going through a bad time in your lives to give this book a go. As I said, the first time I skimmed it I scoffed at the nonsense. It’s highly repetitive and unless you really need it in your life I don’t think it will help you see the light. But if you’re really in a dark place and don’t know what to do anymore, what are you going to lose by giving it a go?

I know this is a long, depressing post. 

But it could potentially change someones life as it did mine.

EMT.

I think I hate people.

Well, this is awkward. Today I came to a realization. I don’t think it’s just Twitter and Instagram (Horne, 2013) that I hate. I think it might possibly just be the human race.

What is wrong with people nowadays?

Seriously.

ETM.